how many times will i take to get it right?

there are too many choices in life to make.

too many risks to take. to many sacrifices to make.

and in fact i'm really broken inside.

A brand new beginning.

Hi all. I hope you all had an enjoyable day today.

Went to the school to purchase my new MacBook yesterday. Happygirl123.

The functions are pretty well. I love the trackpad! (that's what Apple calls it.weird? yes i know) It has many lovely features in it. One finger for smthg. Two fingers for scrolling. Three fingers for back and forth. Four fingers to get an overview of everything. It's like using less energy for the same amount of work you do in other ordinary computer. Haha.

I must say that I was pretty reluctant to purchase the macBook as I was the one paying for it. So yeah. I'm sure all of us have read the news that tsunami has strike again... poor japan. i really do sympathize them yknow. Them being one of the fastest city in the world, now all to dust and nothing. And Sg has only sent 5 dogs and 5 humans. WTF. seriously la, Sg is small, but surely we can afford to send more than that right -.- I pray that all the Japanese there would be alright. Safe and sound. Hoping that the death roll will not rise again...

Mum bought a new cammy today at the IT fair. It was crazy and squeezy. LIKE A PACK OF SARDINES, literally.

But the bargains were really reasonable though. Comes with many free gifts and thumbdrives.

My mum even managed to bargained for a free battery. Wonder how she does bargaining so well. Prolly it's in the women's genes. Haha. Maybe I will be like that someday. Muhaha. k I feel evil. But seriously, it doesn't harm me having thoes kind of genes since it's helpful...

People say that the world is gna end soon. (ever since the events that had happen to japan)

Is it true? I somehow don't think it is. I somehow think it is. Yes, imma contradictor.

I hope by the time the world ends, I would have confessed all my feelings to the person I love so that I live with no regrets.

I really don't know what to do. Charles isn't here in Sg, so idk who to turn to when I need advices. :( Charles Charles Charles, come back plxxxxx.

sometimes i feel like a fool waiting and holding onto smthg that is not gna happen.

do you even mean it when you said sorry and you didn't appreciate me?

how come i don't feel that you're apologetic at all...i feel so stupid to keep thinking that you would still be part of my life. as soon as i move on, your long and emotional text comes along. what are you trying to say? are you fighting to keep me by your side? cos' i dont feel it.

i feel like giving up on everything. every fuxking thing.

i'm tired of fighting to keep you by my side. cos' in the end, after every sorry you make. it'll all be back again. those stupid feelings and the tingling butterflies i would get whenever i see your text. i hate the way you talk to other girls. i admit. i hate the way i care so much about you. i hate the fact that i'm still jealous when you're with another girl.

argh nicole. wake up. he doesn't care, why should you?

live your life. do your parents proud. survive poly. it's a brand new beginning after all.