inspiration

she's the coolest woman i've seen so far other than my mum and granny. :)
i've been catching her shows promptly on TLC every sunday. heh heh heh.
hell yeah, she's a very good tattooist. like literally. i rlly admire these people who are working as a tattooist. once the pen is down, it's inked into your skin forever. and if they make any mistakes, it's your body, it's your ugly. she has many tattoos on her body. and i think it looks great. i mean she does dare to be different right? that's another thing i like about her. you guys should rlly watch he show. LA ink. on TLC. 11pm. it's seriously cool shit.
it's like you provide them with a piece of art, they modify it to become better, and it'll look fabulous on your body. really. the colours, the contrast, the shades. wow. :O it's really cool.and she hires all the best and top tattooist to be in her shop. walahhhh, how great is that. i thought of being a tattooist once, but my art kinda sucked. so yeah, i wouldnt wanna destroy someone's life and draw ugly on their bodies. :)

Long gone and moved on

When’s the day you start again
And when the hell does you’ll get over it begin
I’m looking hard in the mirror but I don’t fit my skin
It’s too much to take, it’s too hard to break me
From the cell I’m in
Oh from this moment on
I’m changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on , it’s time to get a real

Chorus
Cause I still don’t know how to act
Don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
Cause you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone, and moved on
But you’re long gone, you moved on

So how’d you pick the pieces up yeah
I’m barely used to sayin me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scarin off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And it’s not me that you’re with

Oh from this moment on
I’m changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It’s time to get a real

Chorus
Cause I still don’t know how to act
Don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
Cause you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone, you moved on

No I can’t keep thinking that you’re coming back, no
Cause I got no business knowing where you’re at, no
And it’s gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal, yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real

I still don’t know how to act, don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone you moved on

dear me, you should start feeling happy

hi. i'm here to update this dead blog of mine. and i reckon anyone reads it. heh heh heh.

Prelims are soon over, and the battle begins. 1 more month and i'm a free woman! :D

after the sucklikeshitthingstupidass history paper, i went for a swim with Mel and Kasi. :D

it was awesome. i felt like a feather in the water! maybe not really, but yeah. smth to that extent. we talked about many things in life. friends, teachers, tv shows, silly incidents and mature 18 stuff. heh heh heh. but i felt good talking to them after so long of being a nerd staying at home. :( that's what exams will do to you. and my hair doesn't smell like chlorine! haha, but the water is kinda salty. *yuck**urgh*

anyw, i'm not feeling happy these days. i hope i'm just paranoid and feeling stress. i hate these days. it's like you're moodless and suddenly you're happy, suddenly you are not.

i rlly rlly rlly wonder why am i feeling this way.

maybe i could just take the happy pillz that Simpsons too. the effect of the pillz are rlly cool.

1) you get to see happy faces all around you

2) you will feel happier this way

3) you won't feel sad.

taddaaaaaaaaah. it's rlly awesome.

oh i just thought of a word to describe my feelings these few days. empty

it's like you care but you don't care.

you changed but you didn't.

you are here but you're not.

you love but you don't.

you don't want but i want.

this isn't suppose to happen.

FML FML FML FML FML FML FML

Idonthavemotivationihateholidays

Today is mundane. I've not started to hit the books yet thou I kept telling myself that I should. And I NEED TO. however, the fee-ling just isn't there. I started by sitting comfortably on the chair, did some maths. I ended up watching Alexandra burke's vids on YouTube. Ps: she has an amazing voice! And yes, It's a gd thing that she has won the X factor. Hehe.
I've kinda missed school these days. I feel that right now, we shouldn't even have school holidays. Yes, for the first time I hate holidays. I lost the momentum for studying. I hate this. I lie on my bed every morning telling myself to study. Hehehehehe, I'm watching tv. Ok. Today is not a v gd day :(
Anyw, hari raya's coming. Which means there is loads of goodies for me. Hehe.
And prelims here. Then Os. Then the blasting holidays.
Muhahahaha. Can't wait. :)
I have to think of my future. I still don't know where I wna go. :(. Sheesh.
Okeh. Gd day people. (L)

time for work!

10 things i wna say
1. bangkok is rlly fun. and awesome. and fun.
2. i had a time of my life sitting next to a shemale beside me in the aircraft, speaking to me in thai.
3.bangkok's tom yum soup damn hot and spicy and delicious!
4. i miss bangkok alrdy.
5. i miss u so much when i was in bangkok. :(
6. but i had fun with you today at the park. :)!
7. boys are weird creatures.
8. prelims are drawing near and i m still nt studying. nicole shit yourself.
9. it's alrdy 2.24 am and i m still talking to byy online. k, panda eyes tmrw.
10. tmrw will be a bttr day.
xoxo