all the contradictions make me weak.

I want to ....

1) highlight my hair

2) study abroad but idk where

3) move on with my shitty hopeless life

4) have smth that will make my hair grow faster and longer

5) school to start soon

6) do smth different everything instead of just sitting lazily in front of the tv.

7) travel around the world in 79 days

8) help the needy throughout the world. as many as I can

9) show men that women are as strong and dominant as them

10) talk to friends whom I haven't talked for a long time

11) be happy

stop running in my mind, aren't you tired?

hi all. once again i'm here to update this dead space of mine. ha ha ha. :P

many things happen in my life. and imma lazy ass to type everything out.

1) taylor swift's concert was the sex bomb man! muhaha.

ps; when are you coming back taylorrrrr? we misssssshhhh youuuuuu (L)

2) Chingay Parade finally ended! yesss and nawwwww :(

it've been really fun. getting to know the other ballet girls from another ballet school. :)

although my costume is kinda errrrr, *speechless* but hey! i had fun k! hehe :P

3) teaching tuition

I've teaching tuition to a Korean family for close to two months now. It's really tiring travelling here and there sometimes. But on the flip side, I still get $$ so yesss. hehe :P

4)ballet ballet ballet

currently taking over my teacher's baby lessons as she injured her knee. so yes, the kids are kinda tough though. but rather fun on the other hand too. contradiction much? yes.

i rmbr still stuttering on my first lesson. muhahah, it was my FIRST time la plox.

5) i'm happy, sad and confused about where am i now.

dont be confused, i'm not lost in a shopping centre. :) i think it's just something that everyone has to go through. something about finding yourself. and being confident about yourself.

it's about time i stop critisizing myself and find more time to improve on myself instead. :) with more time to improve myself, i have lesser time to critisize others as well as myself. :D

so it's kinda like a win-win situation. :)

on a lighter note, there's America Got Talent today on channel 5 tonight! :P

sorry for the abrupt change ya? cos i've been sitting in front of the comp for the past three hours. and my brain is kinda weird nowwwww~

till here thn,

PS! CHARLES RETURN MY MAILLLLLLLLL~

and i miss you and another you too. xoxo (L)

I'm busy getting stronger.

Valentine's is around the corner, and i have yet to come up with any plans for that day.

My mood is haywire today. A minute I'm good and laughing, the next I'm sitting there, crying about things I shouldn't be thinking about. Looks like moving on isn't so easy as it seems. Why is it so easy for you then? Maybe the one who cares less wins the game of love.

Went to tumblr.com just now. It never fails to inspire me in a way or another. Be it in life, attitude and most importantly relationships and how about being confident and feeling beautiful all the time. Sometimes I do wonder how is life without tumblr.com

Those of you out there who do not have one, do sign up for one. It really have many pretty pictures and inspiring quotes. Believe it or not, you'll not regret it.

Above is an inspiring quote I found in tumblr.com by Marilyn Monroe.

She's quite a diva back then. And she's a truly beautiful person inside and out. :)

Somewhat like Audrey Hupbern. Really cool. Pretty faces everywhere.

I got a girft for my sister. I'm not too sure if she likes it or not, but it's the thoughts that count, no

? Many a times I really hate her, like literally hate her. But as a matter of fact, I'm still her elder sister. Most of the time, I think about how life would be so mundane without my two sisters. Nobody to shout at me when I'm singing in the showers, nobody to fight with for silly things etc. And that I'm grateful that I have two beautiful sisters inside and out. Only sometimes, not all the time. Sometimes they can really be a bitch and get on to my nerves. :)

so yes, i hope every couple and singles enjoy their valentine's day no matter what! ^^

god bless everyone! (L)

xoxo,

Nicole

a day out.

so here i am once again, blogging. haha. went out with Sandy today. met her at 9am to have breakfast @ Citylink. Proceeded to Suntec for my interview. :) the guy hasnt called me yet though. oh heez. i do very hope that i get the job. get my head off a couple of things.

I FINALLY BOUGHT THE RING, yes. thank you sandy for the ring. (L) :P

we traveled a lot today though.

from cityhall>suntec>MBS>somerset>bugis>illuma>home sweet home.

subway is weird cos they dont allow card cards to be played at their shop. said smth got to do the management or smth. i find that really stupid. omg. for god's sake, it's picture cards! not pokercards ass! LMAO.

anyw, today is a tiring day for me cos' i woke up at like... hmm, 815? oh my.

i wonder what time will i get up for school when it starts....

i somehow dread to start school, yet i am feeling excited to meet new friends.

it's a feeling i always get. i'm not a fan of change i suppose...

i needa get a job asap if not i would rot at home.

teaching ballet is fun yet tiring. :( nawwww, i whine too much. the children are fab. (Y)

and yes to you.

it's really annoying that you always leave half your words unsaid. so, whatcha trying to tell me?

you gave me hopes, and you crashed them.

it always seems to me that i'm a toy. oh when you're having fun with others, i'm forgotten by you, again. as usual. when you talk to me, i seem like your heaven on earth. this is pretty stupid. can't you be like a man and just tell me what you want? i find myself so stupid waiting and waiting and getting hurt all over again. you don't care, you never will.

second chances are bullshit, like seriously.

you gotta earn it back this time. cos' i aint giving in no more.

it really sucks. flashbacks are occurring all the time. wasting my time, thinking on unwanted stuff. so what now? all that you said before is bullshit? or are you just trying to sweet talk me. i really don't know. a minute you were nice, the next you're as cold as ice.

just what do you want seriously? tell me. so that i dont get hurt by your silly words again.

enough of heartbreaks, please.

happy cny (L)

hi all, it's been long since i've blogged. :P

Cny is here! feel the festive mood yet? haha. all have been going well for me so far.

been to many relatives' places, played cards (won $$ enough for 3 mcflurry!!) muhaha.

It's sort of like a tradition to play cards at my nenek's house every Cny. :)

Maybe habit, or wtv. But shiokkkkk~

Tonight I'm gg to my aunt's house. Gna spam cards and mahjong. (L) hehe.

besides that, did i mention pineapple tarts and loveletters? muhahaha.

muah favourite. :D

i love the food and steam boat. and the $$ i win from cards. :P

oh yeah, hi charles!! how are you? i know you'll read this. Viber me when you see this k?

miss youuuuuuuuuu. :(

come back soon yeah? maybe before you head for states or smth. we needa hang out more before you head for states. cos' you'll have many blond babes there and forget me in sg. tskkkk.

anyw, Viber creates wonder ( i need to emphasize this!) or WhatsApp.

HAPPY CNY!! ^^